Today I feel lost. I skipped a cymbalta dose and felt as though my world was spinning out of control. since taking my pills I still feel sad but its because I feel like I'm not myself ,I'm a mixture of pills and bad experiences. I hope this isn't really my life ,but I know if I want things to change, I have to make things change.  I can't just wait around for things to magically happen cause thats what I seem to do. Me and my family have decided to start a bible study group and I think this will help me get back on track.  All I seem to do (with or without pills) is cry inwardly and outwardly I think of things that would make me happy and its normal things like love and compassion from others and a higher self esteem.  I can't seem to do this on my own so with God, my family and Daily Strength I think I can take things one day at a time and really make some progress.