I've been hanging in there and I feel that the meds are finally working. I started going out, even if it's to wal-mart or the bank it's a step for me and I'm glad I made it.  I still have this reoccuring saddness revolving around a man but I'm slowly learning to go on living with out him. I've been laughing more and I know that things can only get better. I'm trying to look on the bright side even though its dark where I am.