6 weeks today
It's been 6 weeks today sweetheart. I spent the last couple of days shredding bills and paperwork and boy there's a lot of it. I feel like I'm shredding our life away although I realize it has to be done.
Remember I bought that new video camera last spring? I'd forgotten that I'd used it to film us when we went hiking up north and sitting by the lake and I watched it the other night. I don't know if it was a bad idea or not because watching you walk in front of me and beside me while we were both joking around made me smile and made me feel so empty at the same time.
All I have left of our 33 years together is some pictures and about 45 minutes of video. It really brought home how lonely I am and will be without you. Today I couldn't take the dog out for a walk. I just can't bring myself to go out today. If I could I'd just stay under the covers and not get out of bed today but things have to be done. As the weather warms it reminds me that our plans died along with you.
My only plan now is to try and get through each day and hope it doesn't drag out too long. I've heard people say there aren't enough hours in the day to do everything they want. Well they're welcome to my day because my days are much longer than I want them to be. I love you so much sweetheart and nothing will ever be the same without you.
My love always, Mike.
Remember I bought that new video camera last spring? I'd forgotten that I'd used it to film us when we went hiking up north and sitting by the lake and I watched it the other night. I don't know if it was a bad idea or not because watching you walk in front of me and beside me while we were both joking around made me smile and made me feel so empty at the same time.
All I have left of our 33 years together is some pictures and about 45 minutes of video. It really brought home how lonely I am and will be without you. Today I couldn't take the dog out for a walk. I just can't bring myself to go out today. If I could I'd just stay under the covers and not get out of bed today but things have to be done. As the weather warms it reminds me that our plans died along with you.
My only plan now is to try and get through each day and hope it doesn't drag out too long. I've heard people say there aren't enough hours in the day to do everything they want. Well they're welcome to my day because my days are much longer than I want them to be. I love you so much sweetheart and nothing will ever be the same without you.
My love always, Mike.
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