6 weeks later

I thought it was going to get easier, but each day seems to be harder and harder. I lost my husband on December 4, 2016 and it seems like only yesterday. I find myself still crying myself to sleep at night, and holdin back tears when I hear our songs, so many songs.

I started singing "I think I love you" that was playing on the radio, then I could hear your voice saying as it always did, "what do you mean, you think, I know I love you" and I start to cry. Then they played Paula, and again, I always rewordred it and sand so loudy, "Ray hey mond, my love."

So when does it start to feel better? Or do I want to feel better, I almsot feel I don't becasue I don't want to lose that feeling of missing you, needing you.

I pray every day I see your face again and it's hard, because I need you baby.