6 weeks 3 days

It's still raining and windy down here, so loving this weather slept like a baby last night. Today I am officially half way done with my 6 weeks, come on 7 weeks I've been waiting for you. In 4 more days I get to see my little Lili Pea Berry, I am excited, but nervous, definitely trying to relax, but who am I kidding I still worry, it's sad what a miscarriage do to you, makes you second guess everything. Oh yeah no side effects whatsoever from the progesterone oh happy day. Last night I had a dream I started bleeding even though I was on the progesterone it felt so real, I doubled up on my progesterone and was still bleeding, so I got up and pray while tears were streaming down my face. I was so afraid to go to the bathroom in case my dream was true, went and thank God no blood, now I am more worried than ever all the "what ifs" started getting in my head, Lord please help my baby I've always wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember, I've lost one child please don't take this child away from me