6/9/16

I have been doing some thinking today, and making some adjustments to the way I take care of myself and how to improve the quality of my life. I am going to take the pain medication I have leftover from when I still had homedoctor visits, back then I did not always take all the pain medication I was surposed to, because I don't like the way they make me feel, but I did also feel that I didn't need them on a regular basis, so I have a few left. I have decided that I have suffered enough, I have been brave and strong enough, do you hear me mother? Father? Not hel had effective pain control for the past three months has made me so much sicker, so weak I can't cook for myself nor can I eat it if I go through the difficult job and rpping on my endurance and energy, I can't eat it because I am now so sick all I can do is try and get my BP down by laying as flat as I can. That's that autonomic neuropathy or also called disautonomia. So anyway I am as of today going as much pain medicatiaon as I need to redouce the pain level. And that is what I did today. Oh wait a difference this has made! I actually enjoyed a very good day, yes!! I did! I was on my laptop for a good while, it's kind of heavy and hurts on the top of my legs after a short time, but I set it up on an extension arm and that was not too bad, wasent ideal...but it works. I cooked myself a mess of beautiful fresh green beans, fixed them like my X' s, sweat some cut onions together with salt bacon sliced into short strips, garlic, Bohnenkraut or Savory, a chicken billions cube and two cups of water, bring the bacon to clicking and eventually add the 4tablespoons of chopped onions, let them sweat and get glitzy in the bacon fat. Then add the Savory a good tablespoon full. 1/4 teaspoonchopped garlic, 1 large chicken bouillon cube and 2cups of water and the washed green beans. I cooked them for about 15-20 min. I also placed two equal sized RED pirates on top of the beans, and cover it with a fancy plastic cover lid with some overexposed in center, keeps the water from boiling over. 
Boy do I love these kind of green beans, I could eat a whole large pot full, the trick is the Spice Savory. And the salted bacon slices give it the smoked taste. 
I also made a very familiar dish of Zurich Switzerland, called geschnetzeltes, in English; fine sliced beef, chicken or Turkey, slice finely to no longer then your pinky and as fine as half or even less the width of that same pinky. The cut is important. This is made with a fine sauce made with cream, and you add a small can of sliced mushrooms. You serve this over rice. It was so delicious, oh the beans are so tender and taste.
Crazy was, after I was done preparing it all and then cooking being upright too long, and my beast attacked me right. So I couldn't eat very much. But I enjoyed the preparing and the cooking even the removing of the nibs of the beans was fun. 
And I put the extra away in fridge and dishes in dishwasher. Watched a little TV, "The Mountain Men", they sure do some interesting stuff, like the guy who walked all the way clear a cross most of Alaska to the upper North where he had bought a LG piece of land sift unseen, and than he went there to take possessionn of that land, walked for several weeks through some very traitorous country in Al where his now building his simple home. I love watching these shows.
So I have made good progress today, with increasing my pain medication, and with that I have been able to function again. That feels liberating. Tomorrow I will do laundry and change my bed sheets. 
So I can say that I am feeling optimistic.