6/22/11
Life. My body hates me.. Im only 23 but I feel oh so much older!
at 12 my mom started to fight breast cancer and I had to take care of her every day after her treatments I had to be the parent.
at 14 I developed HS so painful and so much blood, my boyfriend at the time got so grossed out he would ask me to keep certen parts of my clothing on... and to think I stayed with that ASSHOLE til i was21
at16 I had peirod Cramps so Bad I passed out while standing in front of my classroom giving a presentaion and was then bed ridden for a weeks at a time
at 18 I had skin cancer on my breast and my back, I have scars that look like giant bite marks
at 19 HS became so bad I stoped trying to lose weight because exercise hurt to much
at 20 me weight started to make me feel even more like an odd duck and I started to develop social anxity
at 21 I could barely leave my house do to anxiety
by 22 It all started to clear up, I was happy. Then my boyfriend cheated on my and exposed me to herpes (still never had an outbreak but techniclly have had it over a year)
at 23 my breasts filled with milk, I stopped menstrating, I started to grow really bad hair all over my face and have acne as bad as when I was when I was 16. OH and I gained 40 pounds. WTF
We finally get a handle on all this and find out that its PCOS yippie I have a name for these new symoptoms my doctor explained that I may never have kids... I never wanted kids until I met the man Im with now, we had already started talking about what our childern are gonna look like, he took the new harder than me, but its not the end of the world. Havent had a bad outbreak of HS in over 6 months but its all to good to be true
Now I have fucking Hemmrriods, at first i thought it was a really bad HS sore on my rectum. Which I thought was odd but no biggie I can handle that kind of pain. 2 days later I can barely walk or sit. It hurts to laugh, cry, cough, pass gas, use the restroom and have sex.
IM 23 wtf really I work 3 jobs I barely have a life, I have an amazing boyfriend who I love and family who loves me. But for real how much shit can a girl take Im in so much pain and to add to it.. I feel a new HS sore comming under my arm.
I had to rant and rave, I dont want anyone in my life to know how much pain and frustrastion im in right now. I just dont get why im stuck with all of this shit.
at 12 my mom started to fight breast cancer and I had to take care of her every day after her treatments I had to be the parent.
at 14 I developed HS so painful and so much blood, my boyfriend at the time got so grossed out he would ask me to keep certen parts of my clothing on... and to think I stayed with that ASSHOLE til i was21
at16 I had peirod Cramps so Bad I passed out while standing in front of my classroom giving a presentaion and was then bed ridden for a weeks at a time
at 18 I had skin cancer on my breast and my back, I have scars that look like giant bite marks
at 19 HS became so bad I stoped trying to lose weight because exercise hurt to much
at 20 me weight started to make me feel even more like an odd duck and I started to develop social anxity
at 21 I could barely leave my house do to anxiety
by 22 It all started to clear up, I was happy. Then my boyfriend cheated on my and exposed me to herpes (still never had an outbreak but techniclly have had it over a year)
at 23 my breasts filled with milk, I stopped menstrating, I started to grow really bad hair all over my face and have acne as bad as when I was when I was 16. OH and I gained 40 pounds. WTF
We finally get a handle on all this and find out that its PCOS yippie I have a name for these new symoptoms my doctor explained that I may never have kids... I never wanted kids until I met the man Im with now, we had already started talking about what our childern are gonna look like, he took the new harder than me, but its not the end of the world. Havent had a bad outbreak of HS in over 6 months but its all to good to be true
Now I have fucking Hemmrriods, at first i thought it was a really bad HS sore on my rectum. Which I thought was odd but no biggie I can handle that kind of pain. 2 days later I can barely walk or sit. It hurts to laugh, cry, cough, pass gas, use the restroom and have sex.
IM 23 wtf really I work 3 jobs I barely have a life, I have an amazing boyfriend who I love and family who loves me. But for real how much shit can a girl take Im in so much pain and to add to it.. I feel a new HS sore comming under my arm.
I had to rant and rave, I dont want anyone in my life to know how much pain and frustrastion im in right now. I just dont get why im stuck with all of this shit.
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