I am now almost 6 weeks post op and the frustration of not being back at work is building again as I have got most of my energy back again thank god, as for my goal of returning to work full time that may take time and patience which I am not known for having but I am trying . Looking back on my pre and post op time I have realised one thing  I have changed in so many ways I can only see them now I am not sure why now but I have changed my attititude now is more of a bring it on type where as before I was very routine set I am still for the most part but I can see life away from the strict routine that was life for me . Not only that I feel older  in myself  emotionally like I have taken on the world and won in some way . Well it's late here in so it's time for bed night.