I will stay strong. i think yesterday was possily the most difficult day so far! that voice was just screaming at me. i hate it so much. i completely hate ed! so i will beat it!! yesterday it was destracting me from everything i was doing and i could concentrate i just kept thinking all those ed thoughts. i still managed to eat my three meals though. it just should me how unproductive ed is and how it ruins my life, i have much better things to do than think all those thoughts. I keep telling myself that i do have a value and i am not worthless. That i deserve to eat and live. i'm gunna stay strong, even on days like yesterday where i just fell on the floor crying and telling ed to go away. i know ed will fade and not rule my days. a lighter day is coming.... 17 days now! next 24 days!!