depression....

update....kynlie is now 9 months old..she pulls herself up and stands loves to get into dvds loves to get into dogs water bowl...loves to shake head no and has a tooth on bottom and one coming in next to it....my gabie is now going into 8th grade:( she's soo grown and mature she just cracks me up! I just had a d n c my lining was 28mm! After having baby I was not ovulating and it built up...i was literally changing tampon 40 mins. Who has time for that mess! One morning went to bathroom pulled pants down and gush all this pooling of blood came out on plopped on floor...i was dizzy and weak...sooo that's all taken care of now...now with depression...all the years of trying to get a baby took a toll on my mind..i have her and am grateful! I am wondering why am I depressed...lately I have soo much to do around house but no motivation at all! Why! I am now taking wellbuterin but it makes me mad that I have to take it!...cant I just be strong and my mind not be so chemically un balanced...hmmm...anyways just wondering if anyone else feels like me..they have what they finally got but in away is still sad?.....i work in the mental health field and am very thankful for the mind I have it could be worse....but it's a daily battle! And here I want another baby...wonder how long that would take....infertility sure dampered things...i need to figure it out write a book maybe!