As of October 29, 2008 I met my goal in full. I had hoped that he would do the right thing and work therapy, so that we could possibly work towards reconcilling at some point in the future. No such luck. He emerged from therapy and even more bitter, self centered, self focused, angry and selfish man. What can I say? I doubted myself for so long and I second guessed my perception of our relationship with a great deal of help from him. I painfully see him for who is really is: a man who is so depraved as to emotionally abuse me, thus undermining my self worth so as to keep me with him. He could not simply llove me and let me grow. His love is toxic. He stunted my growth as a wife, a mother, and as a human being. I ask God what did I do to deserve this, but He has not responded yet. I'm trying to be of the mindset that He will heal me and restore me to emotional health. For this I wait>
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