8:50 amThis morning I am feeling a little sad. I am missing companionship with an adult male. I miss having a man with me to go to church in the morning. I enjoy spending time with my 7 year old son, but I can have much of a conversation with him and I am tired of talking about Spiderman, Shrek, Pokeman, Ben 10, and all the other cartoons that my son is into. There are smells and sounds that are reminding me of Christmas and how I was in such emotional pain this time last year, and how I don't like the person I am now. I want to go back to the person I was 10 years again, before I met my ex. I don't want to get back with my ex. I have actually come to the realization that he is a male slut that will sleep with any women that comes around, and I am not going to be one of his women ever again. I am worth more than that. But I wish there was someone special to celebrate the holidays with.I am going to be leaving for church soon and will be away from home all day. I am supposed to play my flute tonight at church for a special service that the church is doing called "Hanging of the greens." This is the first year we are doing it, so I am not sure what it is all about. I am having a hard time getting my son ready to go, and we are probably going to be running late, because he doesn't want to get dressed.I better go help him.
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I KNOW exactly what you mean. I would love someone special to spend the holidays with. To talk to and share my life with, do all the holiday stuff together. It is difficult esp this time of year. Just no ur not alone in how u feel. I keep praying that God will send someone for me. I really thought I found him but it doesn\'t seem to be working out.
I\'m glad that you know you are worth more than being with a man who sleeps around. It\'s a hard lesson to learn, knowing we\'re both someone good, I\'m still learning this.
Have fun today. I\'m here anytime u wanna talk. Much Love Christal
PS...it\'s good ur involved in Church and stuff. I know it helps having other things to do and other people to hang with. Do you have a singles class there? Anyway, either way we\'ll have to try and focus on keeping busy to take our mind off of the other stuff but there may be times u just feel sad like me and give in to it which is ok as long as we dont give in too long. Anytime u wanna talk - I\'m here! christal