2:05 pmLast  night had a really great time. I went out with my sister and cousins. It was such a good time. My brother in law was there. This was the first time I went out with my brother in law.We all dressed up. My sister and BIN were Fred and Wilma Flinstone. I was a butterfly. My sister did my hair for me. And my cousin did my makeup. It was so fun dressing up to go out. I actually felt a little attractive. Didn't get hit on at all this time, that was good, but I still felt very attrative.We started out at my cousins house. My BIL and cousins wanted to drink before we went out, since it is very expensive to buy drinks when you are out. I had a drink that my BIL mixed for me before we left, can't remember what it was called. Then we went to a club called Thirsty Parrot. We ate dinner and then went upstairs where they had a live band. They didn't start playing until about 10:30 pm. It was a nice time dancing and having some drinks, and just being with my family, laughing and joking and dancing. I didn't get home til 2:45 this morning. I woke at 7:15 and had a bit of a hang over, so I went back to bed. It was a great time, but I just don't feel the best this morning. This is something that I won't do every weekend. But when I have the opportunity, I will. It was hard to be there though. I know that my ex hangs out there sometimes with his frineds. I fear the day that I run into him in public and he is with another women. It will break my heart. I did see a friend of his, I know she will probably tell him that she saw me there. Anyway, it was hard, because every once in a while, I would see a guy that was similar to him in stature and then I would start thinking about him. Then I would just have to start dancing or have another drink, or joke with my family. It helped to keep my mind off of him.I did meet a guy online Wed. We were matched on a dating website. We have emailed back and forth a few times and then texted on the phone, then he called me on Friday night. It was really fun talking to him and we connected at a level that was very comfortable. Well, he texted me yesterday and we talked to each other all night through texting. Even while I was at the club. It was about 1:30 am when I got the last text from him. Then when I woke this morning at 9:30 there was a text from him. We texted a couple times and he told me that he was going to call me today. So I am looking forward to talking to him. He told me last night that he liked me and he did think that I am pretty. I told him I like him too. I am hoping that we can get to know each other better. No matter what happens, I definitely want to take it slow. A good thing is that he lives in a different state, about 5 1/2 hours away. So we won't be seeing each other much. I like it better that way in the beginning.  Then I know we have to go slow. I have noticed that when sex comes into the relationship, it ruins the relationship. Especially if it is outside of marriage (which I am totally against). I am very guarded in this though, because I don't want to get hurt and I don't want to hurt anyone. Plus, I still have such strong feelings for my ex, those need to go away completely before I get into a serious relationship first. I don't want my feelings for my ex to just be transfered to another interest. That wouldn't be fair for him or me. But I am willing to nuture a friendship first.  This is something that is a little exciting for me. A guy that has the same interests, beliefs and goals as I. Very exciting.