12:25 amI am going to ask you all for a favor. I need you all to hold me accountable. I don't like the person that I am right now. I am a women who is in love with a man that she can't have and it is driving me to do things that I would not normally do. My ex always loved me before, when he started talking like this I would say, "You know you love me and don't want to end this." and just saying that simple sentence would bring him back. But it doesn't work anymore. I have lost my charm. And it is driving me nuts. I don't have any control in this anymore. The only thing I do have control in is myself, so I need to restrain myself from doing things like trying to make him come back, because all that is doing is causing us to fight, he is fighting me more, so it is doing the opposite of what I am actually trying to accomplish. This is where you all come in. You have all helped me to try to move on, but now I need you to be more proactive with me. I need you all to totally tell me what is, tell me when I am being stupid, tell me when I am going to far. And if you need to, just yell at me. I just need all my friends that I have made here on DS to hold me up. I believe that with all your help I can be strong enough to move past this and stay away from my ex. We are not going to talk for a month. If there are things we need to talk about, it is going to only be through email. I hope that he misses me. Or I hope I can move on.Thanks to all of you that have become my supporters. Even though I only know what you let me know of you, I cherish everyone of you. Some of you have become closer than others (you know who you are), you have special places in my heart.