12:30 pmToday has been a busy day for me. Having some issues with children that are having problems. It has been very difficult for the teachers. I have a couple students that are having some serious home issues and it is coming out in their behavior here at the daycare ie biting, kicking, screaming, coloring on the tables, floors and walls. Anyway, It is 3 children from the same family and disenrolling would financially huet my center.Anyway, on a better note. I have interviewed several girls and am hoping to make a decision at the end of tomorrow. So far there at three girls that are prime candidates for the position. I have 2 more interviews tomorrow and then I will sit down go over references and make my final decision. This has been a much better turn out than the last 3 weeks that I put an ad in the newspaper. I am having a really weird feeling today. You know when you are on the edge of a swimming pool and there is anticipation to jump into the pool? Like there is a force just pulling you, you just have to make the initially plunge? That is how I feel right now. I feel like I am supposed to be sad, like I am about to go over the edge. But I don't want to jump in. I want to hold myself back. I feel like I am about ready to snap, but I am holding myself back. I also kind of feel like I am holding myself back from healing and moving on. I don't want to forget what I once had with my ex. But I want to move on. There is just a hodge podge of emotions right now swirling around in my heart and mind. It is almost too much for me to handle.