8:56 pmI am starting to feel a little depressed. In fact, I have started crying for the first time since Thursday. I am not really missing my ex, but I am missing companionship. I miss someone being there to talk to. I miss someone putting his arms around me, holding me. I miss recipricated feelings. I am a very passionate person and I have a lot of love to give, with no one to give it to. It is totally going against my nature. I think that is why I started crying. I am fighting so much who I really am. I called my ex this evening. I never should have done that. We didn't talk very long and we didn't get into things about relationships, but he was so cold and distant. It is like we are strangers. He has actually written a couple songs about us. In one song the lyrics are "Once we rose, twice we fell, once we spoke, but now we might as well be strangers, in passing." This was the second time that we were separated, but this time we didn't get back together. We used to be best friends, but now we hardly know each other. When we talked tonight, I could tell that he is so far away from me that I can never get him back. Well, I don't want to be down anymore so I am going to be done with this journal.