9:55 amNothing really exciting going on in my life right now. Nothing real emotional or dramatic. I actually feel kinda blah! I didn't talk to my ex at all yesterday. He called, but I didn't answer. And I didn't call him back. I think the space from him is helping me to move on. I wonder what it is helping him do. My son and I had a really great weekend. Today is my mom's 49th birthday and I think that we might have dinner with the family. This is birthday season for my family. It all started on Sept 28 with my sister in law, then Oct 7 was my ex's b-day, Oct 13 my sisters, today Oct 15 my moms. On Wednesday my grandma is turning 80, we are getting together with family on Sunday for lunch to celebrate her life. Then Oct 28 is my father in laws b-day, Nov 3 my brother in laws b-day. I think that is it for b-days. But then we have what would have been m our 7the wedding anniversary, holidays and then at the beginning of the year we have a few more b-days. This is not the easiest time of the year for me. I am just trying not to focus on all the birthdays and how they were such happy times with the family. Now they are just with my son and I and my side of the family.Anyway, My es sister in law is getting married on Nov 11th, and I got an informal invitation. She wants my son to be the ring bearer. I am not sure what to do. I don't really want to go, because the whole ex-family is going to be there, and what if my ex has a date. I don't want to see that. But I still love my sister in law so much and it is her day. But with so many people there, will she even notice my absence? I just don't know what to do. I guess there is still alot of hurt that I am trying to avoid. What do you all think I should do?