10:20 pmI am at my house right now and my husband and his sister are here, I was really hoping that my husband would have come by himself but his sister came with. I wonder sometimes if he brings her along so he can have an excuse for not staying. He was going to come by himself, but she had met us all at the restaurant and didn't have a ride home, so he had to give her a ride. So anyway, he is here playing a video game with our son.I was very happy tonight. It was nice to see my husband so happy, but why was he so happy? Probably because he still enjoys having me around, and I am always around whenever he needs his fix of me. Maybe I should be more scarce. Maybe then he will really start to miss me. Up until now he hasn't had much of a chance to miss me. I am always available when he wants me. So tonight is going to be the last time in a long time that I see him or do anything social. I don't really want to play games, but one of two things will happen from my space. 1. He will really start to miss me and realize that he wants a relationship, or 2. I will start to heal and will be able to truely move on. I guess there is a third scenario. Both he will miss me and I will move on. I just know that I am tired of letting him control my entire life. I am going to start focusing on myself.I have to go know. But I am feeling much better tonight. Thak  you to all and I really love and appreciate your support and advice.