9:45 am In just a little over a week I am going to be officially divorced. I am having such mixed feelings about this. I know that I am going to cry like a little baby and I don't want people to really see how hurt I am. I am so nervous. I know that my marriage is over, but I don't want it to be official. Then I am going to be a staitistic. Divorced-single-parent. I just got off the phone with a clerk from the courthouse. I needed to know what the process is. It is just going to be the judge, me and my stbx. I just don't want this to happen at all. I am crying as I type this out. I know several people that tell me their marriages were reconciled 2 weeks before the divorce is final. But has anyone every heard of a divorce being reconciled at the final hearing? I haven't. So I guess it is hopeless. In a way, I want it to all be over with. Then I can feel like I can really move on, but what if I never move on. What if I can't ever get over this? What if 10 years down the road, I am still the same person I am today. Divorced-single-parent. Anyways, who wants to be with someone like me? My husband, who had vowed to love me forever, couldn't even stick with me.I guess I am just having a pitty party for myself. I better stop before it gets worse.
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hey you,cheer up the problem isn\'t you! The problem is in him.....your a great person I\'m all the way in nc and I can tell that...I think God has other plans for you.
My mom always said find someone who has the same beliefs as you and I didn\'t and I see now why it was important It is very hard being married to a man that doesn\'t care about knowing god .He is releasing you from what is maybe holding you back and I think ....like a bud that could almost wilt away you are going to now be able to bloom into a beautiful flower and find great happiness.