9:45 amLast night was the worst night that I have had since my stbx left. I found out that his girlfriend is flying out to see him this weekend. She only met him 1 1/2 months ago and she is leaving her 3 children at the drop of a hat to fly out and meet him. Anyway, I will admit that I flew off the handle and started arguing with him about all the lies. He told me that me giving him the divorce would show him that I really loved him. I did it, and he just turned around and jumped into a serious relationship right away. Just one of his lies to get want he wants without feeling that he hurt anyone.Anyway, it was 11:30pm and we fought for about an hour and I stopped answering the phone. He then showed up at my house at 1:00 am with his sister and her boyfriend. I had been telling him that he wasn't going to see our son anymore, and I was going to fight that in court. Well, I felt very threatened because of him showing up with two other people. (If he wouldv'e been by himself, I would have probably thought maybe he really just wanted to talk, but when I heard 3 car doors close, I realized that he was going to try and take our son.) Anyway, due to the background of DV I never answered the phone and I talked to him through the window and said I was calling the police. So I did it. When The police showed up 3 minutes later, they had left, but another police found them parked not to far from my house. I guess he stopped and talked to them and told them they needed to just leave and go home. Anyway, drama, drama, drama! Stuff like this hasn't happened since we were still together, and I thought I was going to be all done with it. but obviously I am not.My stbx hasn't been helping me financially yet he helps this girl get a plane ticket out here this weekend. He says they are going to slow things down, but I think it is just the same BS that he has been pulling since we got married. Saying things to get what he wants. I just want to leave and get away from him. I should have done that from the very beginning. I should have never told him I was pregnant, I should have left to have the baby, and I never should have married him. I just thought that he really loved me.Anyway, he has called me several times this morning, but I have not answered the phone at all. I am also considering going and getting a restraining order on him. I didn't take my son to school today, because I am scared that someone will go and try to take him while he is there alone. I just don't know what to do. I had been praying that he come back, and then I felt like maybe, I had prayed enough, but I feel that if I stop praying for him to come back then I am giving up on him and the hope, and then I also feel that I am question God's power to change peoples lives. So I don't even know what to pray anymore. I don't believe that it is God's will for us to be divorced, but Ryan also has freewill and I can't make him do anything. Right now, my heart is aching so much with a burden that I fear will never go away. I am at work and I can't stop crying. I just want to go to bed and sleep till I die.