7:30 pm I am still feeling sick today, but I don't feel quite as sad. My stbx IM'ed me as soon as he got online this morning, but I didn't even want to communicate with him that way. I want so badly to move on and be ok with everything, but I still have such strong feelings for my ex. I think I always will, but I guess what I need to learn is what to do with those feelings. We were together for 8 years, married for 6, and we have a 7 year old son together. I am never going to be able to be completely done with him, so I am going to have to learn to deal with him. I don't want to even think of him with another women. I definitely don't want to see him with another girl. Why do I have to do this at all? When I said my vows, I took them seriously. Why couldn't he have been the same? I don't really want to even think it about it anymore, so I am going to stop typing.