4:00 pm It has been a long time since I written a journal here, because I thought I had healed and was ready to move on, but I have come to realize that I haven't and am not ready. my divorce is going to be final on October 4th and my stbx is already in a committed relationship with a girl that he met on the internet 3 months ago. I gave him everything, my whole heart, my whole life and just for him to trample on it and turn around and give his heart to a girl that he hardly knows. After all the time that we spent together and the good memories that we have, he is willing to just flush it all down the toilet, for a relationship that is destined to fail. I have been crying all day. I thought I would feel better by now, but it still hurts jsut as much as it did a year ago.