5/2/07 8:30 am
I woke this morning feeling even further from my husband. He called last night as I was falling asleep to talk about some things that happened to him throughout the day. He also wants me to move the rest of my stuff out of the house tonight. Wow! Nice to have the notice. I really don't have the time to jsut drop things, ask someone if I can borrow their truck and go move all my stuff to my house tonight. Maybe this weekend, but not tonight. I can kind of understand that he is wanting to get new carpet in his house and he wants to have the guy start some time next week, but is this just his way of pushing me out more and moving on. I don't know what to think. He seems excited about the changes that he is making to his house and he wants to talk to me about them, but is it just a friendly conversation. I feel like God is telling me in some ways that it is over and I need to move on. In my dreams, the way that I am feeling somewhat peaceful about moving on. There is nobody that I am in a relationship with right now, but I feel like I am ready to give my love away to someone who is willing to take it. I wish that was my husband, but just like I said in previous journals, he does not appreciate it and I know there is a man out there who will and will give love to me in return.
Anyway, I am getting all gushy and now I am sure you all want to puke, so I am going to stop now.
I woke this morning feeling even further from my husband. He called last night as I was falling asleep to talk about some things that happened to him throughout the day. He also wants me to move the rest of my stuff out of the house tonight. Wow! Nice to have the notice. I really don't have the time to jsut drop things, ask someone if I can borrow their truck and go move all my stuff to my house tonight. Maybe this weekend, but not tonight. I can kind of understand that he is wanting to get new carpet in his house and he wants to have the guy start some time next week, but is this just his way of pushing me out more and moving on. I don't know what to think. He seems excited about the changes that he is making to his house and he wants to talk to me about them, but is it just a friendly conversation. I feel like God is telling me in some ways that it is over and I need to move on. In my dreams, the way that I am feeling somewhat peaceful about moving on. There is nobody that I am in a relationship with right now, but I feel like I am ready to give my love away to someone who is willing to take it. I wish that was my husband, but just like I said in previous journals, he does not appreciate it and I know there is a man out there who will and will give love to me in return.
Anyway, I am getting all gushy and now I am sure you all want to puke, so I am going to stop now.
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You two need to sit down and just lay everything on the table. Remove the emotions as much as possible so they don\'t interfere with getting to the bottom line. You need to know if he wants out. He needs to tell you yes or no. No in betweens, you have your life and you need to move one way or the other. Just let him know if it\'s over, you need to know so you can move on. Your tired of being stuck in limbo and it\'s not fair for you. Your not being mean, your just being honest.
Don\'t hold back! We are all here for you. I told you before, you are special and you deserve as much happiness as anyone else. He is too chicken to say anything so he just leaves things hanging. It is up to you to say OK I deserve better, and I can make it happen thru Jesus Christ, anything is possible
Your in my prayers,
Tricia
Getting over stbx is a long process. Eventually we get the point, that they are selfish and self centered and don\'t want us. They want to control us, and make us miserable, but not love us the way we need and deserve. Peace comes as a process too. Hang in there, keep trusting God, and everything will work out the way it is supposed too.