4/27/07 9:50 am
It is Friday and I am supposed to spend the evening with my husband and son. Things have been really weird with my husband the last week. He said that he does want to spend more time with me and our son as a family, and I am kind of seeing that.
Yesterday he called to just chat about a few things. I was actually on a "date" with a friend when he called and that made me very nervous. He wanted to talk about his job opportunities and changes that he is needing to make for the future. He even said that he is considering leaving his band ! YAY!!!!!!! That is what I have been praying for. I don't really know what that means, but I am sure it is something. He was asking me what my opinion was for everything that he is going to be doind and what I think he should do. I felt like saying "What do you want me to say? Do whatever you want like you always have done?" Instead I said, "Do whatever you think is best for your future... and maybe even what is best for OUR future together." His response was not negative, he just agreed with me. he is considering selling his house and I think he was fishing for an invitation to move in with me and our son at my new house. I would love for him to do that, but there would need to be some definited, immediate changes:
1. Marriage counseling weekly.
2. Private counseling for him weekly.
3. Definitely no more band.
4. He must attend church with me every sunday.
These are just a few things that would need to change before he comes back... Not that he is coming back for sure, but is sounding like an option. I am not ready to give up on him yet. I thought I was, because I met an awesome man that I know would treat me a good and I know that I could love him, and do love him (not in the way that I love my husband though) but I am not done loving my husband right now, either. Anyway, I have too much hope that my husband is going to come back soon.
So that is all for now.
It is Friday and I am supposed to spend the evening with my husband and son. Things have been really weird with my husband the last week. He said that he does want to spend more time with me and our son as a family, and I am kind of seeing that.
Yesterday he called to just chat about a few things. I was actually on a "date" with a friend when he called and that made me very nervous. He wanted to talk about his job opportunities and changes that he is needing to make for the future. He even said that he is considering leaving his band ! YAY!!!!!!! That is what I have been praying for. I don't really know what that means, but I am sure it is something. He was asking me what my opinion was for everything that he is going to be doind and what I think he should do. I felt like saying "What do you want me to say? Do whatever you want like you always have done?" Instead I said, "Do whatever you think is best for your future... and maybe even what is best for OUR future together." His response was not negative, he just agreed with me. he is considering selling his house and I think he was fishing for an invitation to move in with me and our son at my new house. I would love for him to do that, but there would need to be some definited, immediate changes:
1. Marriage counseling weekly.
2. Private counseling for him weekly.
3. Definitely no more band.
4. He must attend church with me every sunday.
These are just a few things that would need to change before he comes back... Not that he is coming back for sure, but is sounding like an option. I am not ready to give up on him yet. I thought I was, because I met an awesome man that I know would treat me a good and I know that I could love him, and do love him (not in the way that I love my husband though) but I am not done loving my husband right now, either. Anyway, I have too much hope that my husband is going to come back soon.
So that is all for now.
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My prayers are with you.