ok, so now I am really mad at myself. Why do I keep putting myself in the position to get hurt by my husband. Sometimes I just think I am done with relationships. The only relationships I want to even keep are the blood relations. I don't even want to try anymore.
Why is my husband so cold hearted? Do things not affect him in anyway? He must not just care. He has closed himself so much that he doesn't have any emotion what so ever. It makes no sense at all. One minute he is smiling at me and laughing and enjoying our time together. Even being a little physically affectionate. The next minute he is short with me and doesn't want to talk to me at all. Do those times we have together mean anything to him? They mean the world to me. I wish they didn't though. And I wish that I would stop giving in to him. I just love him so much and miss him so much. Everytime I hope that this will be the time that he says "I love you". But then it's not. I don't think I can do this much longer.