I am feeling a little better today. Maybe because it's Friday and I am looking forward to a weekend with no obligations (other than church, but that's not an obligation). I am going to be avoiding my husband. I know I say that all the time, that I am not going to answer his phone calls or anything like that, but do I follow through. No. I am very weak when it comes to my husband. I love him very much, but I deserve someone who is going to treat me good. And love me the way I am supposed to be loved. I guess my thing is that I don't really want to love anyone else, other than my husband so even if I met someone who could treat me good. I am just not ready. It kind of makes me sad.

Anyway, I am doing much better today and am feeling good about myself. I am going to do some happy things for myself this weekend.