The water works won't stop this morning. I had a great conversation with someone last night that has become very dear to my heart and talk through things brought up some feelings that I have not been able to get past yet. I cried alot last night. Thanks for listening to me sob, Eric. I think I even cried in my sleep. I woke up this morning feeling worse than I have in a long time. I just miss my husband so much and want him to come back. It is a waiting game now. There is nothing I can do or say that will make him come back. He has to decide on his own.
I talk to my huaband several times last night. He has an interview right now at a job that would be great for him.

"Lord, I pray that if this is your will and this job will help him to move foward in a positive way and may possibly help our marriage, allow him to get the job, but if this job will nothing but hinder the chance of reconcilliaton close the door on this. Please reveal yourself to Ryan as you has promised. And give me the strength to make it through the day."

That I what I have been praying. I do want my husband to get this job, but I want God's will to happen more than anything. I know that God's will is for us to not get divorced.

I have to go grocery shopping for the daycare now, so I will return to continue my list.
~Andrea