I am starting to feel a little depressed today. I haven't talked to my husband in 2 days now. He doesn't even care to call to talk to his own son. There have been things that my son has done that are new and my husband has missed out on it all. He doesn't even care, so I am not going to tell him. I am starting to fell hurt the more I think about it. I need to just stop thinking about it. When I was on my way to work this morning I was thinking how I am doing just fine without my husband, but why I am I not fine now. And last night I came to the realization that I need to give up on having a relationship with my husband anymore, at least for rigth now. He tells me that he hasn't closed the doors on us having a relationship in the future, but that is only because he is the type of person who never says never. I don't think it really means that we could possibly have a relationship in the future to him. That always breaks my heart, because all I want is to have a relationship with him even if I have to wait, but I don't even know if I will get to have one.
I am jsut rambling on now and made myself cry again so I better go. Have to make breakfast for the children now anyway.