wtf
I love him so much, but at the same time he does not care about me the same way I do him. He loves me as a friend, he says I am a beautiful person, he is going to take care of me for the next 6-12 months financially so I can get on my feet because he has been a financial burden. I never cared because I had him in my life. I still will. After the last few days together talking and sorting things out he was right, and I was in denial. We are just friends and we have been for a long time. It still sucks. It still hurts.
I have NO ONE HERE! No one to go to a movie with, a walk with, shop with, NO ONE! I am actually moving in to the city in Oct (he is paying for it all). and am trying to figure out how to make friends. As a dispatcher its hard to meet girl friends (95% male industry). And there is a guy at work that keeps hitting on me even before we broke up. Its creepy and I am not interested. He does not seem to get it. If he dosnt cool it I am going to management. Even the drivers when they found out I was single said dont let him find out and to becareful. I realy dont need this right now.
I keep asking him if he will change his mind, and he said no. He was unhappy, and it made him feel worse that he could not find a way to keep being in a relationship in this capacity. He just does not feel it anymore. I realy dont want to be in a relationship again after this. I just dont get it. Not that I want to be a crazy cat lady, but I just dont get it.
My friends asked me to move back to my home town. I left because i hated it there. I tried looking at apartments there and had a panick attack. When I look at apartments where I am now I was ok. Even though I have no friends here I was ok. Is that normal?? I would think that I want to be in a place where I can go to movies with friends, go out to dinner, do SOMETHING but I dont.
When some of the girls at work found out about the split they gave me their numbers. I have only been there for a few months. Its kind of funny on the day after we broke up I went in and told my manager what happend. He said I need to go home and do something nice for myself and not to worry about my job. He took me into the head honcho's office and he said we were going to wait to tell you but I need some good news in my life. They gave me a promotion. They even said that they will help me move by loaning me a truck and paying drivers to come out and move me.
I just dont get how I feel. I know he was right, and I'm ok. At the same time I still love him and want him to be with me as my husband. I'm just confused.
I have NO ONE HERE! No one to go to a movie with, a walk with, shop with, NO ONE! I am actually moving in to the city in Oct (he is paying for it all). and am trying to figure out how to make friends. As a dispatcher its hard to meet girl friends (95% male industry). And there is a guy at work that keeps hitting on me even before we broke up. Its creepy and I am not interested. He does not seem to get it. If he dosnt cool it I am going to management. Even the drivers when they found out I was single said dont let him find out and to becareful. I realy dont need this right now.
I keep asking him if he will change his mind, and he said no. He was unhappy, and it made him feel worse that he could not find a way to keep being in a relationship in this capacity. He just does not feel it anymore. I realy dont want to be in a relationship again after this. I just dont get it. Not that I want to be a crazy cat lady, but I just dont get it.
My friends asked me to move back to my home town. I left because i hated it there. I tried looking at apartments there and had a panick attack. When I look at apartments where I am now I was ok. Even though I have no friends here I was ok. Is that normal?? I would think that I want to be in a place where I can go to movies with friends, go out to dinner, do SOMETHING but I dont.
When some of the girls at work found out about the split they gave me their numbers. I have only been there for a few months. Its kind of funny on the day after we broke up I went in and told my manager what happend. He said I need to go home and do something nice for myself and not to worry about my job. He took me into the head honcho's office and he said we were going to wait to tell you but I need some good news in my life. They gave me a promotion. They even said that they will help me move by loaning me a truck and paying drivers to come out and move me.
I just dont get how I feel. I know he was right, and I'm ok. At the same time I still love him and want him to be with me as my husband. I'm just confused.
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