Morgan didn't do so well yesterday.  She went to the dentist and he had to cap one tooth and fill the other.  She whined and cried all evening saying it hurt.   It feels awful not being able to do anything to help. I did give her some motrin and it helped some.I went to my psychiatrist today and he did nothing for my panic attacks. I asked if he could switch me back to xanax because I was having the attacks again.    since I will be starting the Mental Health Center in December he said he'd rather they access me and change meds then if necessary. I guess he's just in the business for the money.  I had to cancel 2 appts back in the summer cause I didn't have the money.I haven't been back to work but i did put my application in at Dollar General which is closer and the atmosphere is better.  Maybe I will get a call and get hired just through Christmas.  I hope so..................Sometimes I just want to give up but I know I can't.    I hate that Christmas is getting closer.....I want to get Morgan so much but can't afford to.   She loves the princesses and horses and imaginary play and when I see how much toys cost, its unreal.  I wanted to get her a play kitchen for her birthday but ended up using the money for bills.......Now since I'm not working don't know what to get her.  Kirk kind of understands our money situation and has already asked for a few video games but he'll understand if he doesn't get them all........I know things will work out...........I started a new book through a Sunday School class. It's called "By Faith". I feel awful because I say I have faith but then I end up worrying soooo much.  I haven't been to church in a long time and this class just started so I hope I can get myself up and continue to go.  The kids enjoy it as well.   Morgan just loved going to Sunday School and playing with the other kids.  Kirk has some friends from school that go there so he likes it.........Feeling better today than normal just wish I could go back to work.

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So glad to hear you are feeling better! ...and you are gonna keep feeling better...keep telling yourself that...make it happen : )