I'm feeling bad today.  It seems nothing in this world is going right.  I  have an episode last week. This week I had to terrible migraine. Started Thursday night and Friday I took my Maxalt. It helped a little and my sister had to come get the kids. The pain just kept coming back. Last night I had already taken all of my Maxalt so I took four ibuprophen and a xanax and it helped for about 2 hours. Then the pain again. Now I just feel sort of numb.  I don't think my family realizes bad I'm doing with this depression/bi-polar thing. They don't understand why I can't take care ofmy kids. I hate for them to see me depressed sleeping all the time and then out of no where yelling pitching fits. My husband is all stressed I know but he doesn't let me know it. We are both soooo tired of dealing with this stuff. I just want to quit. I don't know why God has me here. I'm worthless to everyone. I need help sooo bad. I don't know what to do.  I have no friends my family doesn't understand, my kids don't understand, my husband doesn't understand I have no job no money and just can't handle the stress any longer. Only God can get me through and sometimes I don't want him to. I just want it to end.