Wow, I made it through another "episode".  I guess thats what you call it. I am suppose to call my doctor tomorrow and maybe get started on a mood stabilizer called Lamictal. Anyone heard of or tried.  If so let me know. I'm really reluctant about going on this but after last week I feel I have no choice.  I am so terrified. The doctor thinks I may be bi-polar and I don't want to be and didn't want to admit it but now I think maybe I might be. I am really scared. I started out with panic attacks went on anti-depressants then depression sank in then menopause and now bi-polar.  Whats next?  Well, I think I scared by husband enough to where he said he would go to marriage counseling with me. We need to try somehow to meet each others needs and communicate more and enjoy each other more. I'm really going to try to support him more than I do instead of complaining that he doesn't support me. I have an interview tomorrow but its about an hour drive so don't know if its worth the drive but its the only opportunity since January so its worth a shot. I need a job badly. Overall I feel like me again and have been enjoying time with my kids. Time for bed. Goodnight.