I have had 2 good days after having 3 bad days. My mood swings are better. I have went off the neurontin for now. Thinking about going on Lemictal or something like that. I hate switching meds. Sometimes it seems it messes up your brain. I still have no job. I feel so depressed when I see my 11 year old want and do things when I feel I can't provide for him. That is such a tender age when he wants to fit in with the crowd. Maybe its good I can't afford alot. Sometimes being the "in crowd" isn't good for kids. Its whats inside and how I love him that matters. At least thats what I tell myself.