Well I have made a lot of changes in my life. A lot of them being really hard, and some being really easy. I wanted to clear out the people that cause drama in my life, and the people that really only want all over me and make me feel awful. Now most people would say thats easy but I found some easy and others very hard.
First was looking at getting rid of the people that cause issues, so some that was easy as I have not spoke with them in a long time due to their drama. Others even though caused me huge hurt I just am having the hardest time letting go when they dont want to let go. So I feel like I should give them another chance even if it has happened time and time again and hope that they dont repeat and instead keep where they are right now which is making me have second thoughts.
Others like people in my family it is far easier then what I thought. There are people that I dont feel close to and have been hurt so much by that I just have given up caring. And do to that I just dont mind pushing them out of my life, I feel nothing. Well sadly happier without the drama and not having to please them I can say what I really want to say and have wanted to.. so it makes me feel great to finally get rid of them out of my life.
So this alone riding drama has helped with my moods as I feel happy without the constant crap everyday. So maybe things will start going in the forward direction!! vs this stop go thing that drags me down all the time.