LAST NIGHT

Yestarday afternoon, I was replying to someones message to me and the power went out. It came back on mometarily. But my internet did not. I messed with it all night. I threw things, cussed alot, layed on the floor trying to figure out the cords, nothing worked. I finally gave up and started rearranging my office and listened to my music on the computer. Well, my anger turned into depression and the urgency to cut. I had to cut, I wanted to cut and I needed to cut. I, as you can guess, cut. I cut the hell out of my stomach and I cut my right wrist. I hit the vein but I once again let it bleed for awile until I  felt woosey and I cleaned it and doctored it and bandaged it , then I wrapped a brace around it to add pressure. It stopped bleeding and I went to bed.  When I get stressed, I tend to overreact. I know this. I called the phone company and they came out fixed it this morning. It was a bad wire outside and my cord was bad inside. It was something that simple and that was all. I did self-harm to myself and it was somethung simple. I do not know what to do about these uncontrollable urges that I am experiencing. Anyway, I just wanted to explain what has been going on in my little world. Thanks for listening.