another sleepless night when will they end. When will I stop feeling this way. I watched this movie tonight. Yes, it was a love story. And the guy dies at the end. Oh just what I needed. matt's game went great. he layed someout and had one sack. I told him I was proud. But it didn't really make him feel great. the team won 36 -6 Oh well I really don't feel like I just want to complain. I want the new me and I want it now. And if I can't have it now I want to crawl up and stay in bed. I did not ask for this. No I did not. Oh boy do I feel like a selfish child right now. Well, yes I am because I wish I was not alone. I hate it hate it. I will probally be alone the rest of my life. Oh well the choice God has chosen for me. I use to tell Harry it is God's will our life be filled with pain. And now I live with the pain and lonliness Oh boy god's will again. Go ahead eat your words Eileen. I am so sorry for not being able to be encouraged tonight. I am just whining. Good night. w
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I just went through this the other day, I will be alone forvever.. not true.. we will not be alone we will find that soul mate again.. just wait and see.. give it time.. God has a good plan for all of us.. HUGS.. i am here for you..
Where do I start - I could echo a lot of what you are saying! I don\'t think I know what sleep is. I am glad Matt\'s game went well - I have a Matt too (my youngest). Crawl up - I don\'t care where - yep, me too - I am tired of how I am suppose to go out and be with people and do do do do do!!! Hang it all is what I want to say to everyone!!! Being alone - feeling vulerable all creeps up on me all the time - tonight it was something to do with the house and I just don\'t know how to take care of this whole house alone! There is that word alone! God\'s will - I keep telling myself I can\'t question God about this - but I have to admit it makes no sense to me. Pain - I can\'t talk about pain - I know it all too well and I didn\'t need anymore.
You are not whining at all - you are being honest and you are explaining the true reality that this journey is and what is apart of it. Don\'t worry about encouraging - I don\'t think what I am writing is enouraging either - what it all means is to say I am with you and can say the exact same things! I wish you didn\'t have to be alone and going through the pain. Hugs - Bonnie
Eileen, you are only human. A tired and weary one who has been through tremendous pain. You are not complaining you are just letting us know how you feel. You have always been there for us. We want to be there for you too.
I always feel for someone elses pain. I wish we didn\'t have to go through this pain. But we are. We have good days and we have bad days.
Please don\'t forget how much encouragement you have given me. It\'s also nice to know we are not all perfect. I can be very whiney sometimes. That\'s what I was on Sunday.
I know about the sleepless nights. Wish I could help you there but I am still sleepless.
But I can and will keep you in my prayers.
I am so sorry you are so tired and discouraged. We have all been there atleast once if not more. I know what it is like to want this to be over, to want a new life, to have a new whole (not broken) heart, to be a new person, and I wish I could tell you how long it will last but I don\'t have a magic wand to take away the hurt or the loneliness. If I could do this for you, my friend, I would. And I don\'t have magic beans that will grow and lead you to a special place where everything is golden and life is peaceful. And no magic answers. I only have this, God is always there to help us and won\'t leave us or forsake us. His blessings are all around us. He will never give us anything more than we can handle. I have seen him take some very bad situations and use them for the good of those he loves. It\'s not right or is it fair I know. You are a good and caring person. You have a beautiful spirit and I do know that through this DS site you have been a blessing and an encouragement to me and have helped me through some very difficult times. I figure if I have helped just one person here I\'m doing alright. Then my pain is being used for the good of another person. It gives us strength and healing to share, encourage one another and vent when things get so tough. My friend, you are not whining but \"keeping it real\" and simply expressing yourself and that\'s ok. That\'s what this site is for. It\'s good to vent and let it out. And I know that God will restore us in HIS time and not in ours. Perhaps He is drawing us closer to Him durring this time and teaching us to rely on Him and not on ourselves. I know that is difficult to understand right now but I really believe that in times like these we need Him more than at any other time in our lives. And it is the time that we push Him the farthest away from us. We question, we scream, we don\'t understand all that has happened but He does. Cry out to Him and He will answer you. Here\'s praying for a peaceful night sleep and a restful mind coming your way very, very soon. You are my vey special DS friend and I really care about you. Thanks for being here for me and I hope I have helped you in some way too. Love, Jen
I am thinking of you tonight, can\'t sleep either... I am praying peace and rest upon your right now... blessings my friend... love Rene\'
Whats sleep? I didn\'t know there was such a thing ha ha. No though, I understand what you mean. I slept a restless 4 hrs last night and I\'m still awake now at 1 a.m. I don\'t know what its like to feel the loss you feel...the death of a soul mate. I do know what it is to feel grief for a loved one lost. I do know what its like to feel the dream of being with someone taken away. None of this passes easily. I am here for you in your time of grief. You need someone to talk to, I am here. Please don\'t say you are whining my dear, you are not. You are simply a human being. It is okay to feel this way. Happier days will come. Just you wait and see..
I too have felt like you do many times. I also worry about living alone the rest of my life. Sometimes I can cope with the feelings and sometimes I just let them get the best of me. I think that it is part of the process of grief. I find that what helps me is to read and to focus on today and not on the future. I find that spiritual books help me. I read books by Wayne Dyer and they always make me feel better. However, it is a rollercoaster ride. Sometimes you can feel better and at other times nothing seems to work. You are not alone.
Praise the Lord I am not alone
Fight the sadness as though you are fighting for your life, because in a way you are. It is so hard and you may need weapons (spiritual, therapy...) and arm your self to beat this. In my battle I am finding more tears at times but once I semi beat one area of darkness, I know that Brian is proud.
Keep saying \"I CHOOSE TO LIVE\" love ya linda