Dear Harry,Today I miss you. Today I wish you were here. TO share this special day with us. In just a few hours your son will play on the Raider field. Something we dreamt about. Something that we talked about with pride in our hearts. In some how just doesn't seem real, with out you being there. I know you would want to be on the 50 yard line yelling go go HIT HIM. I know you would have been his biggest fan. And everyone would know you were his dad. And that you were his coach. I on the otherhand am very nervous. Thinking will he get that interception tonight. Will he get that sack. Will he hurt someone. Or what will happen. I pray he plays the best he ever played. That you will be there in his heart. I miss you and want to share this with you. I don't have anyone to talk to about this with. Called Rookie today and he says he will try and make it. My how he is such a good friend. He loved you and you loved him. when I talk to him, I see you there. I feel your presence. Your best friend. I just wish you two could have shared the last few years as friends. Your friendship sure taught me a lot. Neither of you got to tell each other your lives for the last two years. Because of the pride. He is living a new life. He will be remarried soon. Although I don't like her. I feel I need to give her a chance because he says he loves her. I guess that is how he felt about me when we met. I mean heck 18 years that separated us in age, sure did raise some eyebrows with our friends. They thought you were robbing the craddle. Yet, age was not a difference or a factor in our lives or in our love for each other. I just miss you so much. Then I think about your dad. I am still confused on what I should do on that situation. I haven't seen him in weeks, I just couldn't go to the va. I am so confused. I am sorry Harry, I know you want me to be apart of their lives. I know you want me to be apart of the family. I know you want matt to know your family. I am just so confused. Please if you are watching over me, help me to make that decision. I hope you understand that I love you. Yes, missing you in times like this just doesn't make any sense. I know that the feeling of missing you in exciting times will never leave 10 years from now I still will be wishing you were out his senior game of college being his biggest fan.To my husband I love you and will alwaysTo my husband the biggest cheerleader to my husband the one who was our supplier And protectorTo my husband I miss you today. Forever yours,Eileen