It is raining today And I love rain. But I am not full of excitement. But I guess that is because Matt and I faught this morning. I swear he just doesn't get it. I don't get it either. But The question is why???? Why are there days when Iwake that I know I will feel blue all day and why are there days I just smile and rejoice for them. Oh being alone stinks. Last night when I got home from Church, which was such a blessing a missionary for Isreal was there. She was 60 years of age. And God called her into the field after her husband passed 6 years ago. She said something that made sense to me. She said what we go through now GOd is preparing for us for his will later. Oh how true that statement is. I know this and keep wait to see it. So many people don't know God so many people don't know God can give them peace. Our world is such a sad world. Fighting everywhere, hunger,and lonliness. a major problem we try to do things on our own. With no answers we just make decisions. And sometimes they are poor ones. It is at these times we make ourselves go even more insane. Because we wander if we get out of this or why we are in this situation in the first place. I never asked to be a widdow at this point in life. But I did know it was for the GLORY OF GOD!! That is why he sent his son to die on calvary. Just feeling like a individual with no living purpose. Dear Lord give me a purpose.
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Dear Eileen,I guess we all experience days like that. I think maybe you need to just let the love of Christ wash across you and trust and believe that He will handle all your problems today, he will hold Matt in His hands as He does everyday, it is normal for a young boy to argue with His mom ...believe me I know I have raised 5 boys myself. Everyone of them after the age of 12 always wanted to argue with me. I beleive it is because they are growing up and much to fast in the crazy world we live in. Just trust Him remember what His word says?....\"raise up a child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it.\" I believe you are doing that so now you just need to trust Him. You do have a purpose we all do...I know I am here to be an example of Christ to be His hands, feet, and voice in this crazy mixed up world. Plus we are here to learn from Him casting all our cares on Him because He cares for us. May Jesus comfort you and bring you peace in your times of despair. Your friend, Nancy
you have always had a purpose in life....it might not be easy to see what it id just yet....but i know it soon will. You have incrediable faith, strength, and courage....you will get through these hard times...and when you do, you will no longer wake to the feeling of being blue, you will be happy, rejoycing, i have every faith in you, luv u xxx
thinking of you... I\'m sorry it is so hard today... warm hugs to you my friend...
Oh dear - a purpose. You seem to echo what I have felt for weeks. If all I do is just pay bills - make decisions (and also poor ones too) and then nurse myself since the everything is in flare - I see no purpose. I just wish I could offer more than my empathy and have some wonderful answer but i don\'t. I do know that the Bible says that God cares for widows, and that widows are to spend time in prayer. Maybe there isn\'t anything more than that. I don\'t know. I do know the Lord cares - I have witnessed that - but I know when I pray for others I wander in my thoughts and that leads to my grief and then I feel guilty and then I try to get back to praying. I dont\' know if this going on and on is doing any good - just know I too wonder what my purpose is - sorry to take up space in your journal. Bon
God will show us all the way.
Awesome.. HUGS