Not feeling to well today. I just read my daily email from griefshare.com, Sometimes I read them and I say no way Not going to do that. But today I read it and it was talking about openly talking about our grief. I believe most of us try and do that here. And I am very grateful for my DS friends. But I can't say I openly do it in front of my family and friends. I can probally name a total of 4 people who know I still struggle with my grief. After I read the email. I wander if this is not some way holding me back from moving on. This whole thing is growing process, and maybe I am stuck on this roller coaster because I don't let people in. Being an independent individual for so long, it is very hard for me to step up and let people in. Well I guess I am willing to do anything if it gets me off this ride.