What a day, I just realized that life is full of roses. Ones that will bloom perfectly, Ones that will droop. and ones that die very quickly. When we meet people it may be the last time we ever see them. So why do we wait to see and tell them things. I sometimes wander why we can't express our true feelings. I am looking at this year and wandering, where did the time go. What happened. What is going on. Harry always had an answer for everything, even on subjects he didn't know. I am trying to figure out why some of that didn't rub off on me. Funny, how God brings people into our lives to help us on things that we don't understand or possibly can't understand. This week I have been reflecting on what Harry was to me and what he did for me. Now that he is gone, I have to retrain the brain. Which is easier said then done. But it is attainable, I know that and I believe that. I just can't understand where to go or what to do. Maybe I analyze things so much. But I can't believe Harry would want me just sitting around not doing things. The question here is what is my purpose in life? Is it just to be Matt's mom. Which is a task I sometimes want to run away from. We have been having a good week. Praise the Lord. But I am waiting for storm. And it will probally come next week. I am fretting Monday. Because I just don't know how to act. More later.