Today, I am so tired. Have been up late the last three nights. Talking to an old friend. One, thing I can say for sure. God answers prayer. I have been praying since Harry died, if I had unfinished business with people in my life that he would bring them back in my life. SO I could finish the business. So far he has brought two of my dearest friends into my life again. Strange how it all happen. But at least I was able to tell them I am grateful for their friendship and for them being in my life for that period. You know friends come and go in our lives. Because situations changes, we change, But friends do have an impact on who we are today, and who we will be tomorrow. Sometimes we let all the rush of the day and day things get in the way of our friendship, and relationships with our families. If anything Harry's death has taught me life is to short. And we need to cherish the moment of now.
"Live today like it is the last, and dream like we have forever."
Harry sort of lived like this when he was alive, He had so many plans for tommorrow,I guess that is why I was so shocked, when it all happen. I never thought I would be raising my son during the teenage years alone. I know God is here to help with that. But I always thought so would Harry. We even had a discussion about us buying him a car when he was old enough to drive. I did not think we should, he should do it on his own. Harry on the hand. Said,"noway, when he is old enough I will buy the car." We actually debated, for hours, and our son was only a toddler. What a waste of time, I am sure we could of done something more of quality. I miss our conservations, and even the debates.
Sometimes I wander if I could turn back the clock, what would I have done, to make his life more pleasurable, while he was in pain. But we never can do it. Can we?