just a moment of low point. Boy, one moment fine the next missing him so much. I want to go to the grave, but I have to get home right after work. I need to order his marker for the grave. It has to be there by the 1year. Or at least ordered. I am having such a hard time with that. How can it be so hard. To pick a stone??? I asked for my sister in law to help. But she keeps ignoring me when I ask. I don't want my imediate family to help. And why do the prices change??? The internet is much cheaper. My father in law is going to freak because it won't be there next week. He goes to cementary every Memorial day weekend, and put flowers around the families grave. The problem is I am just having a hard time with this.I know my husband wouldn't care. I know that it bothers my oldest son. His wife asked if they could buy it. I told her you need your money. And that was not the reason there is not one on the grave. They owe enough people, they should be paying them off. Any way that is another story. i am just blue, and missing him!!!!