Mid week is here and I am wandering, Does anyone feel like they are angry over the situation that is at hand? I feel like I have lost control of the world around me. But that is a normal response people say. I just had no idea this walk would be so steep. ALthough I never have climb any mountains. This climb can not reflect the muscle ache from climbing mount everest. I have so much to handle, that I don't know what to do. I say I am going to do it. And then when it comes down to it, I have no energy. Thank God I am able to work and still function there. I have noticed, that I have made some major mistakes in the last year. Either my boss is letting them slide or he understands the lost. This was his first mother's day with out his mom. Of course he wants to act like it was no big deal. All first are hard. I don't care what any one says. Right now I just want the old me back. The one who could handle anything. I didn't think that when Harry went home I would loose myself. Maybe I didn't loose myself, God is just changing me to a new me. One whom is dependent on all of HIM, instead of things of the world. Well what ever it is I pray I will be able to find the answers. I am babbling today just felt I should write all that is going on in my brain this wed. morning.