Before I went to bed, I wanted to write on about this day. I remember so much about all the years that I celbrated my birth. We should celbrate that day. Today has been a blessing. I had a surprise dinner party. I just see all these people around me that are true friends and truely love me. It is such a blessing. That I really can't put into words. Birthdays are times we sometimes fret about and sometimes just want to let the day pass us by. But as a child we are so glad we are turning another year older. That it makes me laugh when you think about you. At one point of your life you want to be old and the other you want to be young again(and know what you know now) HA HA, if we could have known than what we know now what path would we have taken. Would we have flown across the ocean. Or climb higher mountain or made more friends or asked our savior to save us earlier. I know my spiritual birthday would have been a lot earlier. But In God's way he had to mold me and the roads I crossed had to be, for I would not have heard the story of his saving grace. So today, as I sit here and thank God for the blessings that he just showered me with today. It was a storm that was filled with joy, sunshine, and love. Three of the greatest things in life. I wish my husband was here to share this day with me. He always wanted to give me the world on my birthday. I remember one year, I was working a weird shift, and he waited up for me. When I got home, he had a little cake for me and him. And it was set up on TV tray it the room we called "the Cave", (smile GoOD memory)it had one long stemmed rose, and card that said it all Love always. But on my plate was this little box, inside was this gold watch with a rose on each side. When I opened, He said to me" for you to know the time, of when it was time for him and I." I laughed, because I worked 60 hours week and had a 9 month old baby. I knew what he was saying. Time we always needed to make. I remember one year he was so hurt, and he hurt so bad, that he couldn't get out of bed to even buy me a card. When he finally got out of bed, crawling, he ran to the store to buy me my gift, and then we he got home, he left on the dining room table and slept for the next two days, before we went back to the emergency room again. He loved me. This I know. I am so blessed to have 40 years of memories of birthdays. Well, I just hope this new year will bring a new beginning for me.