Easter is gone, another holiday first down the road. Well, it really wasn't that bad. I knew that it was going to be that way. Being the Lord's day and everything. I knew God would comfort me and help me through. I made it through the day, with out crying. Did miss him, and how he would be on Matt and I to dress great on this holiday. Made Matt wear a tie to church. I told him if dad was here you know you would have one on and there would have been no argument. Once I said that, it was over. He looks like such a little gentleman, I wish he would wear a tie more often. But he just loves the skate look. The weekend was fine. And my house is a little cleaner. Praise the LOrd. Now if it could stay that way. The day with the inlaws was just ok, a little drama, but if there was no drama, I would worry. I am blessed to have them. My father in law is not doing well. When he looks at me he gets very sad. I can tell, I am a reminder that he lost his son. He barely knows what to say to me. He never has been good at expressing his feelings. harry Said he never hug him as a child. And when he had his first son, he started to hug his dad. He wanted his dad to know he loved him. No matter what they all went through as a child. In the last four years of my husband's life my father in law shared morning coffee with my husband at least three times a week. They were best friends. I always told my husband you have the best worlds. When you were in your thirties, you shared coffee with your mom. And now your dad. God really blessed him to have that kind of relationship. My son even knows his grandfather loves him. I told him, I thought he should me make an effort to stop by the house more. My son said it was weird spending time with out his dad with his grandfather. I told him, yes, but he must try and make a relationship with him now. He agreed. I know my son, he will. Well I will write later.