I had to change my smile this moment. Because a dear friend just said it all. I am the child of the king. Oh yes, I am what a precious child the thought that when I read it reminded me I am not a poor stranger. I am the daughter of king. A king that offers so much more than this darkness that I walk in. Of self doubt, fear, doubt, lonliness, confusion, grief. I am promised so much more than that. He came in my life to save me from the darkness of the world. And he made me a freewill creature. But only wants me to be changed to image of himself. I have two choices one is to sit in the darkness or one to search his light. And would I rather be darkness than in his light. Do i run to the raging waters, or do I run to the peaceful rock. Now I know that Christ died for me as he did for all. And if I draw nigh to him he will draw towards me. His loving kindness if better than life, I shall praise HIS NAME FOREVER. He is the one that is transforming me now. I am his child. He promises me rewards and blessings, how wrong I was not to see that. BUt he brought me a friend who reminded me that he is my father and he will not abandon me in this time of need. Even know I feel stupid right now because an hour before I was crying and had no peace. The spirit is alive in me, I choose not to push it away. But let it develop me and direct my new path. PRAISE THE LORD!!!