Writing again, because I feel so loss, this is the only place I can vent. I just want to crawl up in bed and fall a sleep and not wake up til I am feeling better. But better what is that. I have never been alone. Never had a man, not in my life. And now I am alone, and really don't want to be. Does that make sense. I always knew Harry would die. But never this early. I don't know what the Lord has in front of me. But I know I must do something. I wish I could just quit life and spend some time in the word growing with the Lord. But I don't even have time for that. I keep thinking of all that we shared. I really don't have energy to do anything. And wander where I got it from when I was taking care of him. Because I know there was more on my plate. We were meant to be together. THis I know is true. I feel lost and confused Where should I turn.