I am just here, going through the motions of life. Last night I went to my girlfriends funeral. Sad to say, but she laid there looking like she was finally in peace. My son, said "she didn't look like her self, I told him he hasn't seen her in two months, so she was sick and in pain, the cancer made her loose weight.He has many questions on death and when you die more now then in June. I guess that is good thing because I am able to deal with a little bit better. I try and think back to June. And can't remember anything. It seems like a blur. Yesterday being Valentines day. Never has been one of my favorite holidays. I believe it is a man made holiday. If you love me show me everyday. I tried to think back to the Valentines that we shared. And since it wasn't my favorite, we never made it a big deal. Which is ok. Nascar starts Sunday. I will probally spend the day crying. I didn't even know Nascar was around til I met Harry. Funny, how things work out.