Crying has started. And I need it stop. I wish it was me who died in June. harry Was so much stronger than me. I have three hours to stop crying and be able to be strong for my son. My heart is empty and all I can do is write and cry. Why am i wishing it was me. Why can't I stop these thoughts? One day it will be brighter I know. I am very blessed to have this guy sitting next to me to cover me.