A little better today. just want to move out of this place. Very distracted can't concentrate. May this all change soon. Stop by to say Hi, and to write a little note.
My Harry, how I miss him dearly. No more morning talks, no more hugs to tell me all is going to be alright, I miss the trips to the hospital, the smile of your face, and how you held me up. Oh how did it all fade away. it was there one moment and gone the next. Will I ever be able to stop the pain that grows in my heart. Will I ever stop pretending to those around me. You were the one God chose for me and I am sorry I didn't realize that in Jan 94. What wasted time we shared for 9 months. Praise the Lord I opened my eyes and saw you. 12 years went by so fast. how I wish I just had one more day to hold you and love you. Today they burry Eveyln, one friend I will miss, she truely cared for me. I can't even go to the funeral, becuase I have to work. Oh life is so unfair. She knew she was going home. And had no fears. now the two of you are together. So strange, to see it all. Little Harry turned 32 and no I didn't see him, You know his life. All I can do is pray. I miss you harry, you taught me more than I can express. Thanks for loving me.
My Harry, how I miss him dearly. No more morning talks, no more hugs to tell me all is going to be alright, I miss the trips to the hospital, the smile of your face, and how you held me up. Oh how did it all fade away. it was there one moment and gone the next. Will I ever be able to stop the pain that grows in my heart. Will I ever stop pretending to those around me. You were the one God chose for me and I am sorry I didn't realize that in Jan 94. What wasted time we shared for 9 months. Praise the Lord I opened my eyes and saw you. 12 years went by so fast. how I wish I just had one more day to hold you and love you. Today they burry Eveyln, one friend I will miss, she truely cared for me. I can't even go to the funeral, becuase I have to work. Oh life is so unfair. She knew she was going home. And had no fears. now the two of you are together. So strange, to see it all. Little Harry turned 32 and no I didn't see him, You know his life. All I can do is pray. I miss you harry, you taught me more than I can express. Thanks for loving me.
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boy I haven\'t wrote in days, I don\'t know if that is a good thing or not. I am still searching for life to give me a smile. Do I sound so greedy. Another death, happened this week. Don\'t know the guy but he is one of my guy\'s at work father in law. I feel the pain all over. Will that stop. I know I have something serious wrong with me. Something is going on in my body. I am running away from that, haven\'t called the doctor to make an appointment. WHat if I am next to die. WHat will happen to my son? will he be able to cope this time. He grows more withdrawn as the days go by. He doesn\'t really want to talk. He doesn\'t want to hang out with me. He is so bored. I am sorry now I didn\'t sign him up for a sport this season. I don\'t know if we will make it through Feb. But who knows. Well we will see how that goes.